This is why I blog

Now I remember. The whole reason I started this whole blogging thing was to be able to look back and see where my training was and see my journey. I haven't used it for this purpose; until today. I'm less than two weeks out from the Princess Half Marathon and I thought I'd look back to see what my pace was for last year. Of course, it's not there. I wrote about the race, but not my actual mile splits. (Note to self: write down the mile splits this year.) I'm bummed about that. I was hoping to gain some insight from it.

However, I did look back and see what my everyday training looked like. I was running MUCH faster last year. That is discouraging. My workout this morning was 6.5 miles- 5 at race pace (9:05) or faster. I was feeling pretty good about that until I saw that last year I was doing things like 5 miles at an 8:30 pace and 11 miles at a 9:45 pace. I did 11 miles last weekend and my pace was close to 10:30. Yikes!

I'm not feeling to good about meeting my goal of a sub 2 hour race. What I'm not going to do though, is let self doubt crowd my brain this week. I've realized that I have a problem of negative talk and I lose before I even start. Seriously I have zero self confidence in this area. I can be running and talk myself into stopping and resting instead of talking myself through it. Every time one of those thoughts creep into my head this week I'm going to kick it to the curb! In my head I'm going to meet my goal. In reality, I may not, but it's not going to be because I talked myself out of it. I have to come up with a positive mantra or something. There was a great article in Runner's World about Kara Goucher struggling with the mental aspect of running. She has words she tells herself. I'll have to come up with some of my own- and quick.

I have a 12 mile run this weekend. I'm going to take it easy and just get the miles in. We leave for Florida a week from tomorrow. Regardless of what happens with the race, I'm psyched to see some sun and warm weather!